I’m style searching, testing the waters, wading through the muck and worries of being industry ready. My current style losing its touch and I’m not sure where to go. A heavy aura hangs in the air and I feel lost under its dark shadow, who am I? How can I communicate through my works? And does my work express what I want it to say, be it my personality feeding through it – rather than a flatness like the paper that stares at me. Deciphering my skills and wielding the tools to make my minds eye reality. There are so many illustrators, I scroll my screen seeing their work light up before me, dawning their brilliance; perfected in style, colour and composition. Where do I start? I have my advice but those works seem fragile now, their strength waning. I can’t create a success so soon, but maybe I can permeate the surface of disillusion, crack it just enough to peep through and guide my hand in clarity.